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By Richard
Bernstein
About a third of the way through his all-encompassing, brave and deeply
humane book, "The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression," Andrew
Solomon writes a vivid description of something called an ndeup
(pronounced nn-DUPP). An ndeup is an animist ritual performed by the
Lebou and Sérèr peoples of Senegal to appease the spirits
that in the local view cause depression, the disease that had become
the main and preoccupying substance of Mr. Solomon's life. He traveled
to West Africa to understand the varieties of depression and he
underwent the ritual, allowing himself to be smeared from head to toe
with ram's and chicken's blood while African women danced and stomped
around him to the driving beat of drums.
His ndeup is fascinating in itself, and culturally instructive; he
concludes that it was probably better than many forms of group therapy
for depression practiced in the United States. But his description of
the ndeup also reflects the remarkable scope of Mr. Solomon's book: its
depth, its breadth and its vitality.
"The Noonday Demon" is one of those rare volumes that deserve the
adjective "definitive." It combines powerfully felt personal experience
with a tremendous sense of intellectual discovery. It is open-minded,
critically informed and poetic at the same time, and despite the nature
of its subject it is written with far too much élan and elegance
ever to become depressing itself.
"Shortly before my 31st birthday, I went to pieces," Mr. Solomon
writes. He readily acknowledges that he might seem to have been an
unlikely victim of what used to be called melancholia, especially
melancholia of a severe variety, one in which Mr. Solomon wept until
the skin around his eyes became chapped. He was wealthy and well
connected, and he was achieving success as a journalist and novelist.
But his happy circumstances are precisely what invoke the first lesson
that Mr. Solomon teaches about depression: it is like any other
disease, cancer or pneumonia. It strikes independently of the objective
condition of one's being, and when it does strike, you don't just snap
out of it.
In one intense passage he uses the metaphor of a vine slowly choking a
vast oak to bring home the insidious power of mental illness:
"In the end I was compacted and fetal, depleted by this thing that was
crushing me without holding me. Its tendrils threatened to pulverize my
mind and my courage and my stomach, and crack my bones and desiccate my
body. It went on glutting itself on me when there seemed nothing left
to feed it."
Mr. Solomon travels not only to West Africa but also to Greenland and
Cambodia in an effort to appreciate the universality of depression's
grip. He gets to know a large contingent of fellow sufferers, whose
stories he tells. He reads everything, from Hippocrates to Freud to
Michel Foucault to lay out for us the variety of opinion and philosophy
that the subject of depression has occasioned.
He discusses why the disease occurs twice as frequently in women and
what its relationship to violence may be in men. He delves into the
possible Darwinian meanings of depression, wondering what satanic kink
in the process of evolution could have allowed it in the first place.
He fathoms the deeper meanings of his own affliction, finding within
his struggle with sadness and loss something redemptive, a tragic sense
that brings with it pain but also insight and beauty. He reviews the
debates over various therapies, most important between psychotherapy
and psychobiology — that is between talking to a therapist and taking
drugs — and he finds that the debate has to do with the connection of
biochemistry and personal responsibility.
"The conflict between psycho-dynamic therapy and medication is
ultimately a conflict on moral grounds," he writes. "We tend
categorically to assume that if the problem is responsive to
psychotherapeutic dialogue, it is a problem you should be able to
overcome with simple rigor, while a problem responsive to the ingestion
of chemicals is not your fault and requires no rigor of you. It is true
both that very little depression is entirely the fault of the sufferer,
and that almost all depression can be ameliorated with rigor.
Antidepressants help those who help themselves."
Mr. Solomon also plunges intrepidly into his personal history: the
death of his mother at 58, his struggles with unpopularity in grade
school, his discovery of his homosexuality and the implications of that
discovery for his psychological condition. He does not spare himself in
this book. He tells about having unprotected, anonymous sex with men as
part of a plan to contract AIDS, a form of suicide that would, in his
mind, have absolved him of moral responsibility for his death. Luckily,
he did not contract H.I.V. He talks at one point about becoming violent
himself, savagely beating a former lover who, he believed, had cruelly
betrayed him, and he writes with rigorous honesty about his feelings
afterward:
"Engaging in violent acts is not a good way to beat depression. It is,
however, effective. To deny the inbred curative power of violence would
be a terrible mistake. I came home that night covered with blood — mine
and his — and with a feeling of both horror and exhilaration. I felt
tremendous release."
Among the most moving passages here are those that describe the suicide
of his mother, who, suffering from terminal ovarian cancer, gathered
her husband and two sons around her and passed away in their presence.
"Don't think you're paying me some kind of great tribute if you let my
death become the great event of your life," she told Mr. Solomon. That
is a magnificent injunction to issue to a troubled son, but it was not
an injunction that Mr. Solomon was able to obey, and he provides a
nuanced and subtle account of why that was so.
One of the many virtues of Mr. Solomon's work — perhaps its most
important virtue — is its fearlessness. Having intimate knowledge of
the noonday demon, he is open-minded and full of compassion, but he is
also not afraid to pass judgments: on unworkable concepts, on bad
therapy, on the habit of self-delusion.
His book is fabulously rich, informed by science, literature, moral
philosophy and above all by his own determination to see his subject
whole, not to avoid any topic, any idea, any conclusion, as long as it
brings him and us closer to the truth.
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